little miss sunshine

[Little Miss Sunshine, Νύχτες Πρεμιέρας]

Ό,τι πιο γλυκό, αστείο, τρυφερό και αισιόδοξο έχω δει τελευταία, απίθανο φινάλε, έκλαιγα από τα γέλια και έφυγα από το αττικόν με ένα τεράστιο χαμόγελο. Για να δούμε αν και το shortbus απόψε επιβεβαιώσει τη φήμη του.

back to school

I have become a postgraduate student again but part-time and long distance this time. I will meet my classmates and tutors online and my academic blog will be part of the assessment! It's strange not being the one giving homework, deadlines and tests, it's been five years since the last time I was a student. I have no clue how I will manage with the morning job and the afternoon lessons but I am excited, the course looks promising and I have the perfect excuse to visit Edinburgh again! I've even got a university card!!!

violently happy

Νομίζω ότι βρήκα τον τρόπο να νικάω τη μιζέρια των δευτεριάτικων πρωινών, έχω έρθει στη δουλειά με ένα χαζό χαμόγελο, λες και είμαι η Πολυάννα και παίζω το παιχνίδι της χαράς. Το κεφάλι μου κουδουνίζει λίγο από τον κουβά zombie που κατέβασα χτες βράδυ στο ποπ, αλλά και βρήκαμε να κάτσουμε και είχα να δω τη Β. καιρό και ήμασταν ξεκούραστες και κεφάτες και ο dj έβαζε το ένα μετά το άλλο αγαπημένα κομμάτια και είχαν προηγηθεί άλλες βόλτες το σ-κ, στα βιβλιοπωλεία του κέντρου και τα δισκάδικα της Διδότου, η πρώτη καυτή φθινοπωρινή σοκολάτα ενώ χαζεύαμε έξω από τη τζαμαρία τον κόσμο που προσπαθούσε να προφυλαχτεί από τη βροχή που ξέσπασε ξαφνικά το μεσημέρι του Σαββάτου, πάλι έξω το βράδυ, μαύρες μπύρες αντί για zombie, how easily can you become an alcoholic??

Είναι φορές που δεν μπορώ να απαντήσω σε αυτούς που γκρινιάζουν και σιχαίνονται τη ζωή στην Αθήνα, τις χαμένες ώρες στην κίνηση, την έλλειψη πράσινου, τους ανθρώπους που δεν έχουν μάθει ακόμα να στέκονται δεξιά στις σκάλες του μετρό, το καυσαέριο και τη φρικτή καλοκαιρινή ζέστη, την ανοργανωσιά και το ‘δε βαριέσαι’. Είναι φορές που θέλω και εγώ να τα παρατήσω όλα, να πάω να ζήσω στο Άμστερνταμ, να κατεβαίνω τις Κυριακές με το ποδήλατο στο εφημεριδάδικο της Spui και όταν φτιάχνει ο καιρός να πηγαίνουμε για μπύρες στο καφέ του vondelpark ή να αράζουμε δίπλα στα κανάλια (και μετά ξύπνησα!). Είναι φορές όμως που η ζωή στην Αθήνα καταφέρνει να με κερδίζει ξανά από την αρχή με τα πιο απλά πράγματα ή έστω να με κάνει για λίγο violently happy for no reason at all.

rain

Rain
Soft in the dark
We take a left thru the deepening park
Grass
Soaking and warm
Past the iron gates
August has come

And I want you so bad in my heart
And I touch your shadowed fingers in the dark
And the stars have fallen on this night like rain
In the silence of the dark october lanes

Iron
Cold in the breeze:
The gate beneath the haunted trees
Swings
As evening reveals
Your face so lovely and unreal

And I want you so bad in my heart
And I touch your shadowed fingers in the dark
And the stars have fallen on this night like rain
In the silence of the dark october lanes
So here everything stays
The dew on the gates has melted away

And in your sunlit eyes I see my love and all the night
And I want you so bad in my heart
And I touch your shadowed fingers in the dark
And the stars have fallen on this night like rain
In the silence of the dark october lanes


[it started to rain this afternoon while I was listening to the clientele, amazing!]

stupid day, go away

It’s been such a stupid-stupid day today. I should have seen it coming from early in the morning. It’s the only weekday I can sleep late, but no, someone had to ring my doorbell at 8 o’clock. I tried to ignore it but he was persistent and then I thought that it might be the new ikea catalogue like last year so I rushed to answer it. And of course it wasn’t.
And then I went to have my toenails pedicured which my friends described as a wonderful, relaxing experience. I had some of my toeskin slightly cut and I had to listen to crap greek music for almost an hour – I couldn’t even read Athens Voice because of the noise and I got a headache which hasn’t left me until now. Why did I ever listen to them?
And then I dropped a glass at the office and it smashed into pieces everywhere and before that I wanted to slap a colleague or pull her hair or do something really mean to her but I couldn’t really, she is sort of senior :(
So now I am waiting for the clock to show eight, so that I can go home, play my cds and make a banoffee pie. Because when I am sad or I have had a stupid day I bake muffins or make sweets and then everything can start being ok again.
And guess what as I am trying to upload this I realize that something’s wrong with the internet. I shall be careful until I get home, I may get hit by a bus or something.

zap

[love me madly by zap51]

I never complain when they send me from work to the tax office - just staring at this building as I cross athinas st. makes my day :-) Can you imagine athens with more walls like this?

the house of sleep

I had a dream last night that Jonathan Coe died suddenly and I was so sad and devastated, I couldn't imagine not reading anything new by him any more. I remember meeting him last autumn at that little theatre in psyri, I asked for a personal dedication and he didn't refuse despite the long queue. I was so excited afterwards, I had a signed book from of one of my top-five british writers, hurray! So, I had to check on everyone of my favourite writers this morning and they are all fine, silly me :-)

paint a rainbow

Earthen trail of slimy goo
I smear it on your cheeks like rouge
Eyes of red and lips of blue
It's cold and safe inside of you
Tie me down and shine
All over your body
Little drops of shark infested sea

When the colours change
I will chase your sadness away
See it glow when i paint a rainbow
Flowers grow all over you
Daffodils and roses too
Sky is painting a rainbow
Around your head like a halo

[spent most of the weekend deciding on the colours of the walls while this old song by my bloody valentine was playing in my head]